You have only lost your way. Your name is still “child of God” and it will always be your name! But now you must turn yourself in and stop the blood shed!
“‘I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters,’ says the Lord Almighty.” (2 Corinthians 6:17-18, NIV)
I want to appeal to the man, who friends describe as very level-headed. Your friends state that they would never, ever expect you to turn into a man on a violent rampage! And you are not that man. The pain which is cutting your insides and causing your anger to boil over against these other people is evil (Satan). He has taken over and made it fester deep within your mind. He wanted you to make theses decisions which would result in a “no return” type of mentality.
Use the free will God gave you to make righteous decisions and stop listening to the evil being whispered in your ears. These evil whispers are all lies which are full of blame, anger, pain, and violence. You and you alone have the power to stop the killings! Cry out to God to help you!
It is time for you to cry out to God for help!
“O LORD, God of my salvation, when, at night, I cry out in your presence, let my prayer come before you; incline your ear to my cry.” Psalm 88:1-2
Now, you must dedicate your life to God. You will need Him to move forward into a difficult future. You can do this!
Pray…God, I am a sinner and I have made some awful choices, I am more than lost. I am in the deep pit of despair. Help me Father! Forgive me Father for what I have done and the lives I have destroyed. I dedicate my life to You and to the families I have now destroyed. You are the Lord of my life. Please come into my heart! Amen. And Amen.
You are now cleansed and ready to face the authorities. Now, please peaceably turn yourself in, please! A life dedicated to God can be your future, and even behind bars there can be hope. You were put on this earth to do good not evil!
No more blood shed or fear spread! You do not have the right or authority to make life and death decisions. Only God possesses the right to say who will live and who will die! Turn yourself in!