Jeremiah 29:11

Last week was my “D-day.”  I knew I would have to make the decision concerning my treatment for Wegener’s disease and Lupus. And I was prepared, because I had already told God that if my being “ok” meant doing the chemo drugs, so be it.  I surrendered my resistance.

On Thursday, I went to my doctor’s office and they put me in a room to wait.  I returned to reading my book called “Strange Gods” to pass the time. Bringing reading material to a doctor’s office is almost mandatory these days.  As I read I came to the bible verse Jeremiah 29:11. It felt more like the verse was being broadcasted to me rather than silent reading.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Huh? Are you talking to me Lord?

I believe He was, and God was telling me that everything was under His control! He has plans for me and not even disease will change them.

Now, what unfolded next was a surreal life experience;i.e. Twilight Zone.  The doctor came into the room and began showing me, my test results.  The Wegeners and the Lupus were now in remission! I have never been treated for the Lupus. And the tests from three months ago to the new tests were like night and day.  During the time between the tests, I had not started treatment either.  There was no logical explanation.

Oh, I still have the asthma and ulcerative colitis, along with the Wegeners and Lupus. Except the Wegeners and Lupus are sleeping, and not actively trying to kill my body. Trust me, Wegeners can single-handedly kill off your kidneys, lungs, liver, and heart, without the aid of Lupus.  To hear and see the facts that it is in remission, is miraculous to me!

What happened?

I truly believe God is what happened! We are members of a church that prays, and prays, and prays.  They stood before God and petitioned for my health, and are continuing to pray.  I also believe that when I surrendered the disease to God, and gave Him all authority concerning  treatment, doctors, etc, it opened the door for Him to work a miracle!

It is hard to give every little piece of your life to God, because we want to think we are in control. And, I am a control freak. But if God’s plans for us are to prosper us, not harm us, and give us hope and a future, why would you want to be in control? We can only accomplish things in the human realm of life.  God’s accomplishments actively occur in all of the realms of the earth and the heavens.

Limited vs Limitless!

God knows the plans He has for you and they are amazing! You just have to be willing to surrender.

If you are struggling with any situation, whether it be small or life changing, surrender it over to God. And know you are loved!

Chatter Crap

When my kids were younger and making me crazy, sometimes I compared it to having two little chipmunks on a wheel in each ear.  Siblings, who are close in age, are known for aggravating, teasing, and arguing with each other. We, parents are supposed to be the official referees and the information control centers of family life.

Well, one day my humor got the best of me and I decided these devious minions needed names. The one in the left ear is “Chatter” and the one in the right ear is “Crap.” Now, Chatter Crap is not limited to the raising of our children either. I view Chatter Crap as something that is becoming a serious illness these days.

Before you get out the net and the straight jacket, please allow me to finish.

While preparing to go to battle against the diseases which have invaded my human body, I realized I needed to do some “junk” cleaning.  My mind, body, and soul required streamlining with the focus on recovery! Everything else would have to fall away.

It was not long before I noticed that 90% of my time was Chatter Crap. Days that are filled with instant news, an overabundance attitude, and personal gratitude. No wonder we are such a tired society.  We find ourselves bogged down with self-pity, self-appreciation, pride, disease, job related work, home related work,  politics, local news, world news, tv shows, music, cell phones, computers, tablets,video games, social media, play dates, and strangers. Whew! And that is just the start of the list.  

While the Chatter Crap continually squeaks and yaks in our ears, determined to convince us that we need to do it all and in order to have it all.

What is having it all? The world’s guidelines for happiness?

But are we happier? Are we healthier?

I don’t think so.

Well, my life was longing for the 1-2-3 punch.

Number 1 – God   First thing in the morning and the last thing at night, with conversations throughout my day.

Number 2 – Spouse  Time spent each day remembering why we love each other, laughing with and at each other, and appreciating each other.

Number 3 – Family  Expressing unconditional love, hope, and acceptance. Uplifting words, holding hands, and holding precious memories in our heart.

Everything else would have to fall in line. And guess what?  It did!

You know, God tells us how to live a balanced life.  And even though they did not have cell phones or social media then, His rules are still very relevant today. God tells us in Ecclesiastes 3, that there is a time for everything in our lives. Funny, I could not find one word about instant action or gratification being the focus either.

A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens:  a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,  a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time for war and a time for peace.

What steals your time? Before you got on social media today, did you thank God for your life, your family, and your home?  Did you give someone a hand up today, a smile, or a kind word?  Is your life all you can imagine, or are you running around and around on the squeaky wheel?

Life is too short to waste! And tomorrow may never come. Kick start it today by knocking out the Chatter Crap with the 1-2-3 punch! You will be glad you did.



The New Journey

They say a journey begins with the first step, and yesterday I took a giant leap. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with Wegeners/GPA, asthma, and ulcerative colitis. I did some conventional treatment and some homeopathy; knowing there would come a day when I would have no choice but to engage in full treatment.

This day has now come.  A week ago, I was diagnosed with lupus and today, after a visit to an amazing Rheumatoid Doctor; another disease was added called SOB. Within the next two weeks, we will visit old biopsies, x-rays, and blood work to compare them to the new ones.  My doctor will then be sure of which treatment option and how aggressive.

I wish I could say that I was surprised, but I was not.  This past year had turn into a downhill run,  health wise.  I can say that I do not feel dread or fear, actually the opposite. My peace and hopefulness even had the doctor puzzled. Because she was feeling a little panicked over the situation. My doctor stated that she hopes she will have the same calm feelings after seeing the test results.

For now, God has given me the confidence which it will take to reclaim my health again. Have you ever felt like you were in the right place, at the right time, and it was all because of God? This is how I feel with my new doctor!

Looking back over the sickness, I have never once blamed God.  It is the world which has fallen, not God.  I know God knows my tears and the great sorrows of my life.  And my anguish is His anguish to help me bear.  Just like my joys are His joys for us to share!  I also know there waits for me an eternal life so amazing, so wonderful; the human brain can not comprehend.

If you are suffering with a chronic illness, an overwhelming loss, or depression, know this fact…Psalm 56:1   ” You (God) keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”

Please join me on this journey, as I blog along the way.  If you feel you need to unburden yourself, please email me prayer requests.  I would love to pray for you!  Know you are loved and God wants you to live a good life, shining your light into the world.


Snoozing Christians Assist Atheism Success!

What do you do when you feel like your own Christian religion has gone to sleep? How do you wake the slumber of apathy and mediocrity? And, how do you shake the nuts loose and keep the fruit?

I wish I knew the answers.  For we are a fallen, dying world unable to save ourselves and too stubborn to cling to the One who can truly save us.  We judge without wanting to be judged and we persecute others, with our noses lifted high in an air of righteousness. While hiding our sins within the back alleys of our life.

Jesus once said that you would know us Christians by our love for one another, and our love for our fellow-man. Except now, the Christian world is really a mask of contradictions. Our places of worship have become social cliques filled with religious rhetoric. And, if we can’t recognize ourselves, how can we expect our Melennial youth to know us?

We talk about change and walk in the opposite direction. So now, our Melennial youth are running straight into the arms of Atheism.  Atheists offer them acceptance and truth based on their science. The pressures of an already over-stressed world appear non-existent in the Atheist realm of no beliefs.

Our Melennial youth would rather believe we are accidents of a primordial soup, than to believe we are God’s intricate design. They would rather believe in a life ending in nothingness, than an eternal life of love and bliss.  While the Melennial youth are enticed by the power, control, and ego, which are offered in the Atheist’s world; the end of their lives and generation will be a victory for Satan.

Are we truly satisfied that we have given the Melennial generation a legacy of instant information, instant gratification, and gadgets to build their future? We molded their worlds into the shape of their desires and wants. And made them responsible for nothing. Can we expect less, if Melennial youth want their religion molded the same way too?

So, when they turn to Atheism and not Jesus Christ, whom do we blame?

The alarm clock is ringing!