They say a journey begins with the first step, and yesterday I took a giant leap. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with Wegeners/GPA, asthma, and ulcerative colitis. I did some conventional treatment and some homeopathy; knowing there would come a day when I would have no choice but to engage in full treatment.
This day has now come. A week ago, I was diagnosed with lupus and today, after a visit to an amazing Rheumatoid Doctor; another disease was added called SOB. Within the next two weeks, we will visit old biopsies, x-rays, and blood work to compare them to the new ones. My doctor will then be sure of which treatment option and how aggressive.
I wish I could say that I was surprised, but I was not. This past year had turn into a downhill run, health wise. I can say that I do not feel dread or fear, actually the opposite. My peace and hopefulness even had the doctor puzzled. Because she was feeling a little panicked over the situation. My doctor stated that she hopes she will have the same calm feelings after seeing the test results.
For now, God has given me the confidence which it will take to reclaim my health again. Have you ever felt like you were in the right place, at the right time, and it was all because of God? This is how I feel with my new doctor!
Looking back over the sickness, I have never once blamed God. It is the world which has fallen, not God. I know God knows my tears and the great sorrows of my life. And my anguish is His anguish to help me bear. Just like my joys are His joys for us to share! I also know there waits for me an eternal life so amazing, so wonderful; the human brain can not comprehend.
If you are suffering with a chronic illness, an overwhelming loss, or depression, know this fact…Psalm 56:1 ” You (God) keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”
Please join me on this journey, as I blog along the way. If you feel you need to unburden yourself, please email me prayer requests. I would love to pray for you! Know you are loved and God wants you to live a good life, shining your light into the world.